I have been forcing my self to vomit for 20 years now. At least once a day. Some days as much as 7 times a day. I can't stop. The most I have gone without vomiting is 3 days. I am 44 and have been at this since 24. I don't even remember what it was like not to throw up. It consumes me. I am so afraid of dying from it. Can anyone help me please?