Ever since November of 2009 i have not had a monthly.I have the symptoms of it but i don't bleed.i have took pregnancy test after pregnancy test and they are all negative. all through out the month i have bad lower back cramps and sometimes i when i go to the restroom my urine has a pinkish tone and when i finish up on the tp it has some blood on it so i put on a pad and an hour later hoping that i have bled there is nothing there and its all gone. this happens at least twice a week throughout the whole month. i used to be regular. every month i would have my period on the 3rd and i would be finished by the 9th. i don't know if this could have anything to do with it but around the same time i had stopped my fiance and i were scuffling around and i had jumped on him while he was standing up i thought he was going to catch me but instead we both fall backwards and when i did i could not get up it felt like there was a knife wedged into my lower back and it was around the time i was suppose to have my monthly but i didn't and that's when it all started. it took my fiances mom and dad to get me off the floor cuz i would not let him touch me. i know i should have went to the hospital but i don't have insurance nor the money to go. but now I'm worried and asking questions. i don't know what to do. i want to have a baby in the future but if this keeps happening i know i wont be able to. i have gained a lottttt of weight since November i used to be a 15 in pants and now I'm a 20 and i keep gaining. I'm scared. there was one time i had my period right after the fall when i bled there where big clump of blood and on my pad it would be a dark red almost black color