Hi, I recently posted a question, but for some reason the link I saved wont work anymore.
I hope you dont mind me re-posting with some new information I found out about my situation. I really need some help and guidance.
I had my period on June 4th or 5th. It ended about the 8th or 9th.
I had my first sexual experience that included nude genital rubbing, but no penetration on the 10th I think. His fingers went inside me at one point but at no time did he ejaculate inside me. The next morning I completely freaked out and went online to find that pre-ejaculatory fluid sometimes has the potential of having semen within it and so on the 11th and 12th I took NextChoice.
On the 16th I started to bleed again, and it was heavy to light just like a normal period and just as long.
Its now the 6th of July and although my period has never been right on schedule I believe that it should be happening right now or should have happened between at least the 1st through the 5th. I think the period on the 16th was due to the medicine I took.
Thats all the information I have physically. Mentally is a completely different story. I am at the end of my rope. I've been even thinking about suicide because there is just no possible other plan if I turn out to be pregnant. I know that it is a very small chance, but small chances in my life are always very real realities that end up happening. I've been through a lot of things in my life but I'd rather go through anything but this. I can't be pregnant, I just cant be. But its this kind of thinking that is stressing me out so completely thoroughly that I literally cant sleep or enjoy anything in my day. I feel as though I think about it every minute of everyday. And everytime I think that I've started I'm let down. I take full responsibility for my stupidness and my uneducated actions, but I have no one to turn to or talk to and I'm afraid my stress is making my period late. I'm thinking about abortions and pregnancy tests and school and money and all these things that I know I cant handle. Its complete torture and putting a deadline of the 10th of July being the day I have to take a pregnancy test is not making my period come any faster or my stress any less...
How do I take a deep breath?
When should I take a pregnancy test? How do I know if its true? Do I take more than one? When? By that time would it be too late to do anything?
Is it possible that nextchoice or my stress is throwing off my period? I have had all my usual symptoms, lower back pain, irritability, headaches etc. But I cant tell if its from my stress or from my period.
What can I do?
I'm sorry to write so much, but I feel like this is the only place I can turn to right now.
Thank you for reading.