I feel trapped. My mother passed away in Greece where I am also from. I live in this country for 22 years thinking its...temporarily until she was gone. I feel like major Tom who lost ground control! I am divorced, two children, 20 and 17, who don't live with me anymore, a recovering addict for 22 years, woke up from a many years coma- it feels like- in a different country. Now even my children are foreigners... I feel my life is over. My affair of many years finally committed to leave his wife and I feel as if its too late: I am not young anymore. My legs swell up when I work or walk (last August I had a major spine surgery), with chronic pain, meds for depression, concentration, meds to keep me awake and meds to put me to sleep, and pathetically emotional- lonely- I cry constantly.
I wonder, are there other women with similar issues??? I forgot to mention that I have secluded myself from a social life. I almost don't leave the house unless its him who wants to go anywhere; him who comes when "he can" still...