I know we are all going to die sooner or later, nothing we can do to stop this. But I am terrified of dying. Always have been but since my father passed away two years ago, it has gotten worse!
I know some say we go to heaven, and I try to believe it, but there is also that part of me that is scared that after life, there is nothing at all.
I get panic attacks sometimes it is so bad. The fact of life going on without me, me not being with the ones I love (although yes, I know if I was eternal, I would lose my loved ones cause they die too). Sounds selfish, but I don't want to die! I need to be able to ease my mind of this.
And the thing is, my father died of complications due to lung cancer, and I smoke. I don't smoke as much as him, but I smoke a pack every other day. Plus I have done drugs-just recerational-not a habit, and stupid things like forget to take my BP pills.
So no lectures on that please!!
But anyone here actually died and come back? what is it like..death? Cause I need to ease my mind.