Well when i was a teenager i started drinking at a very young age and i had allot of problems when i was younger cutting,depression. So when i got sick of doing all that harm to myself i was just so sick of feeling pain in all these ways. So one day i seen a liquor bottle and it made me feel such a feeling of release from just looking at it. Then i had some and it made me feel like a million bucks. Then i started to do that for a while until i found out that doctors know when you are drinking so i got scared and never picked up a bottle again. Problem is i am 24 years old know and each time i get upset or angry or nervous liquor is what i turn to and its getting worse and worse. My boyfriend cheated on me and that is exactly when i went haywire i started drinking and drinking until it hurt (literally) i started to feel burning in my chest and i actually felt good about it because i do not know its just when i was drinking all that it made me feel like it was hurting him. I do not know how to explain the feeling its just a i don't care feeling its like relief. What should i do