When we met I weighed 110 lbs, he was also in very good shape. Almost two years later and we've both let ourselves go a little, I weigh 128 lbs currently. This morning before we had to get ready for our day I tried to initiate sex, and he rejected me. After talking about what happened for a while we discussed how this has been happening more and more often and the reasons why. Apparently, despite the fact that he loves me and would never leave me over something so shallow, he says he doesn't find me attractive anymore and wishes I looked like I used to. Fair enough I suppose, I just don't know if I can live back on the strict regiment I used to, especially long term. I'm not really sure what to do here, we talk about having children quite often and I know that my post baby body will not look the way he wants me to. Also I have breasts now, I kind of like that. I understand where he's coming from we were both at one time fitness junkies and i do miss that chapter of my life, however, at the end of the day I would like to be fit and healthier again because it's what I want not because I feel so unbelievably insecure and undesirable.