I chose depression because my situation is borderline under that category. I feel a sense of sadness. My life has been derailed by forces I don't know due to stories that are not true to be poisoned in the atmosphere from one person to the next. My faith is my Higher Power, which is God. He has pulled me through, but people also need human flesh to help us get through our troubles.
My father recently passed my mom passed six years ago. They were both ill and older, so I can appreciate having them both in my life for many years. But there is an emptiness inside of me. I'm basically a loner, so I deal with situations alone. My family is supportive, and that is great. I envision myself running through a field to no end. Never had feelings of suicide, that is far from my thoughts. My life isn't where I want it to be. Having several falls over the past 10 years with several injuries on one side from hip to ankle has impeded my progress and my ability to find the right type of work. And this blood pressure medicine doesn’t help because it sends me to the restroom regularly, and that is a no no on any job. I’ve had part-time and temporary jobs, but not enough to draw Social Security at retirement age, so that’s a downer.
I feel like I am existing and not living like the man on “It’s a Wonder Life” How does one get through these feelings and do you recommend a book.