I'm so confused I couldn't even come up with a title for my story! Here's my dilemma....
Menopause is a naturally occurring phase in a woman's life, right? Shouldn't it be something we can get through without "treatment"? That was my position. I will suffer through it just like my mother and her mother before her did thinking "this too shall pass".
Well, it didn't! Six years later, I am fat, depressed, overwhelmed.....I don't care what I look like, haven't had sex with my husband in over four years and can barely utter a sentence without stumbling for the words I want to use!
I am the classic example of having "let myself go". And although I am an intelligent, educated woman I cannot dig myself out of this hole I am in. I read, I make lists, I vow to do this or that but because of my debilitating lack of motivation, energy and just the simple fact that most days I just can't be bothered to take care of myself in the most basic ways, I do nothing. Still hoping that this phase must be over soon and I'll feel like my old self or at least some semblance of the old me.
I do have faith, however. Faith that one day I will feel better. I'm slowly beginning to realize, though, that it's not going to happen without some kind of action on my part. I just keep waiting for the day that I'll feel motivated and energized...that I'll be "in the mood" to take action...that I'll "feel like" doing something. That day is not going to mystically dawn. It's got to be a conscious choice that I make to first of all pick up the phone and call a doctor to talk about my menopause symptoms and treatment options and second of all to make a commitment to take care of myself on a daily basis.
Just the act of writing my story has inspired me to make that call....I got a number from the North American Menopause Society list of physicians who are certified ....I'm going to call and see if they take my insurance and make an appointment!