I do not understand this fear or where it came from, i have never enjoyed sex for the most part and would care less if it never happened again. My husband has been pactient until recently and I see my marriage is in avery bad place now I am at my wits end. I have some self esteem issues but they dont prevent my joy in my beautiful children and home and career so I dont understand my sexual disinterest at all. I love my husband very and am terrifided he may want a divorce or at the least cheat! advice would greatly appreciated.