I've been dating for about a year now and I keep having what could only be described as an orgasm??? It starts with a build up of stimulation that leads to heavy breathing, rapid heart rate, vaginal palpitations and wetness, sweating and a feeling that I can only describe as reaching a peak level of stimulation that feels extremely pleasurable and overwhelming at the same time, followed by an abrupt stop and a sense of exhaustion that makes me feel like I can't continue any more (sounds like an orgasm right?). I'm 28 and I don't believe I've ever had an orgasm. This is by far the closest I've ever felt like I was having an actual orgasm and I don't know if I'm mentally blocking myself from fully achieving it? I should add that I sometimes have the feeling (fear) that I might urinate when the build up starts during intercourse??? This maybe one of the reasons that I mentally stop myself before achieving full completion. Any advice would be highly appreciated.
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