Im in desperate need of help. A mother of three children my youngest is 7 months old. I have been struggling with severe postpartum anxiety she was about 4 weeks old. I never had any type of mental health issue or any trouble with postpartum with my other two children I am desperately seeking help I have started hormone replacement therapy. I sought help from my family doctor and was given first lexapro then zoloft both made me incredibly anxious with severe panic.. It would make my legs and arms flail helplessly for hours at a time pulled my hair scratched my skin and didn't sleep for days. I got off of those meds quickly as I couldn't take it anymore. I thought help from a psychiatrist that is not really all that helpful she is actually a resident that doesn't bother to call me back when I really need the help. I am seeking counseling as well. The psychiatrist started me on Lamictal as a mood stabilizer. And seroquel for sleep. I am struggling badly. I feel like this will never end. I'm hurting so bad. I need some suggestions on meds that will help. Everyone told me just put it out of your mind don't worry about things. However for me its not worry it's terrible physical symptoms like nausea shaking diarrhea vomiting. I have a terrible in or restlessness. I have been given klonopin to help with that exciting however I do not wish to take it as it is a benzo and I would rather not get on something that I will depend upon later. Any assistance with my problems would be greatly appreciated I am a productive member of society a loving mother of three children and a college instructor. I never thought this would happen to me. I am losing hope.