I had an abnormal pap while I was pregnant with my last child. I was already planning on getting my tubes tied so my obgyn decided to do a leep procedure while I was under getting my tubes tied. So I had my son in September by csection. After two weeks I was healed enough to be intimate with my husband again. So all was well. Then I went in for my leep/tubal on october 28th. I was very scared about being put under for the surgery. I had a very bad experience in the hospital as well. While I was in preop, I was crying because I was scared. They ended up sedating me and the next thing I knew the surgery was over and I was in pain. Its now been 3 weeks since my procedure and im very depressed because I cant be intimate with my husband and I feel like he is drifting away from me. I have 3 children as well, and my oldest is a very difficult child and treats me like crap. So my self esteem isnt very high anyways. I cry daily now because I feel so down and alone. I just dont know what to do.