Hey. I'm nineteen and got married at 18. I feel like I'm pretty well put together and growing into an adult is all but a speedy blur. I've been married for almost a year and have only showed my husband 100% of me. I won't lie, I had sexual partners in the past. And I was a hormonal teenager as everyone has been.. but I've noticed that coming into adulthood, especially with a spouse, who, may I add, is absolutely wonderful and amazing and definitely my soul mate.. so why is it that this person that I want to give the entire world to.. can't have sex with me because I'm too uneasy about it. I grew up Catholic, and my mom always considered having sex at random was taboo.. she's had 3 husbands and 3 sexual partners. Is it because subconsciously, I've told myself it was taboo, and after my rebellious, do-anything-to-make-mom-mad stage, I continued to tell myself it was wrong, even through marriage? How do I fix it?