Hi.. Help please, anyone... I am on full panic right now. Last Oct 19 and September 9, I have genital rubbing with my bf. He didnt penetrate me, but ejaculated at my vaginal opening. My last period was August 29, but I dont know the length of my cycle, though i would guess around 30-35 days. So basically I didnt get my period in October, but I initially attributed this to trauma since last Sept 8 I was attacked by a stranger inside my own house and was unable to sleep for over two weeks.
Anyway, I had brown discharge around September 20s to October 22, not continuous but I seemed to have bled brown, sometimes mixed with red, everyday.
Since October 23, my anxiety level has been unprecedented to the point that i lost sleep and appetite. Thankfully on November 3, my period arrived. It looked normal, with my usual cramps, usual length (5-6 days), only heavier (well, I did skip a month) and with the usual small clots. Then around November 25, I felt like I ovulated because of the characteristic of my discharge and the other breast symptoms (heavy, sore) and mild abdominal cramps. Then on December 7, my period arrived again in the afternoon, which started lighter, and became heavier with lots of cramps the following day. The third day, it was back to being lighter with bad cramps (I still managed to use 3 pads until night), then on the fourth, I started passing really huge clots of blood the size of my palm, but this time, the cramps were gone and except for the worrisome clots, it was a relatively painless day for me. Could stress have made my December period lighter than normal?
Well, today is my last day (7th) and only spots can be seen. However, I had been experiencing so much gas the past few weeks, and i think I am having hyper acidity, GERD, IBS, that may have been triggered by my constant stress and anxiety. Last night, I can feel a pressure in my lower abdomen and rumbling in my stomach (could this be gas?) and when i stand up, i can feel a slight wall in the area above my pubic bone, but Im not sure if it is what they say "hard uterus". Mine is not that hard or solid, just a lump which i can press back, not the grapefruit shape many were saying fromthe pregnancy forum. Basing from the dates we had unprotected genital rubbing (and ejaculation at my vaginal opening), I would either be 9 weeks or 14 weeks pregnant now.
I havent dont PT yet, because to do so would probably incapacitate me and plunge me into a deeper panic if the test turns positive. I want to have backup plan first. So anyway, my question is, what are the chances of my getting pregnant if:
1. my bf only ejaculated outside my vagina, and I dont seem to have fertile discharge on both occassions
2. my bf is 47 yrs old (I once read a study that a man's sperm motility decreases with age) and i am 34.
3. I had two periods already, November 3 and December 7. Although the last is lighter than usual, but I still managed to use over 25 pads, and lasted its usual length.
Thank you very much. Please dont tell me to test because I really intend to, I just want to be appraised about the risk. And sorry about the ramblings. You dont know how near breaking point I am already now. I just need someone to share these things to and know what they think... :(