From the starting of my marriage.... I am scared of sex... I told my husband about it .. he gave me time to come out of it but I always try to keep myself away from being intercourse with my husband .Whenever we proceed for intercourse but i feel fear of pain and resist him doing intercourse. Actually we had sex 2 times .... once in the starting after 15 days of our marriage and secondly after 1 years of our marriage but both time it was soooooooooooooo painful that I never tried it again .... now we do the oral sex..... but I really want to have sex with him ..... I feel libido many times when he touches me but the thought of penetration and pain resist me....... I read somewhere that red wine will be good for sex phobia..... but I had never tried alcohol.... now I am not able to make my mind what should I do..... I don't want to go for any therapy.... I want to do it by myself. Will the red wine make my mind my brain relax??? Please help me......