Hopefully I have the right place... I am a widow in my 40's, recently began dating again and am finding a pattern which I am having trouble understanding. In the past five years have dated two men at different times,?... (both well endowed, ages 43, 58) who shared the fantasy of watching me 1) have sex with another well endowed man 2) lick his semen left in me upon completion. I cannot imagine letting a 'strange' man into me unprotected, and simply am baffled at why they would want to taste it afterwards? Wondering what this means.... is it the inundation of porn? Gay tendencies? Other....? I would value any insight to help me understand exactly what drives this mindset? Am I the only one running into this sort of strange request? Kindly, D