I have another personality called Bill. He is very sexual towards me and can be very sadistic. The other night he sort of semi-raped me with my sonic screwdriver, a plastic toy. And it hurt really bad at the time because he was rough and fast. And it hurt the next day in the morning too, and now since then whenever I get aroused and stuff it's arousal as normal but there's also brown liquid that comes out. It's really liquidy and when it dries it gets sticky. And I don't know what it is or what to do. I can't go to a doctor over this. I've never been to a gynecologist and never can go I have bad PTSD and I'd rather die than be touched by a stranger ever. I need help I'm not sure if he tore something important. I'm so scared please if anyone knows what this is or how to fix it help me please.