Am only 21 next month i will be 22.sometimes am happy then out of the blue am sad like a whole different type of sad and for everytime i think of the wrong people does to me i get even more sad or the bad things that has happen to me .my life has not been too great my parents are loving and kind am 1 out of the 6 kids they have.at 14 i got pregnant with my first child amd thats whre it all began at 18 my second kid and at 19 i got married to my kids father our marriage is out of order i feel as if every year i will find out about another person he schemes on me with and we we seperate and get right back together.am not happy i feel as if i dnt belong.i feel empty most times i like i aint have nobody most times i would cry and nobody knows. I would often leave my kids and husband in the other room n sit in the front room chair and just silent cry what am crying for idk i just cry when ever this saddness comes down on me i just dont knw what to do i hate feeling this way i hate it