I think i am suffering from OCD . I really need your help. I check gas stoves 1000 times at night . I always feel that something terrible will happen if i’ll not perform this task . I am 21 years old female and since age 13 I don’t know what stupid things i ak doing with switches. I have some terrible connections with switch boards. Wherever i live, wherever i go i always switch on and off the switch for around 5-7-11 times because i consider these are my lucky number. But I don’t on and off it 2-4-8-6 times because these numbers are very important for me . My family members were born on these numbers. Thats why i feel that if I on and off the switch 2 times or 4 times or 6 times or 8 times or whatever i ‘ll loose my family . Similar with my iPhone’s home button also. I feel that if i tap the buttom four times or what i’ll loose that person who was born on that date. I don’t know why i am developing this horrible routine. I lost my ex because of these stupid thoughts and now also my present boyfriend is fed up with these thoughts. I did very unwanted and bad things with him just because he scolded me and in fear and aggression i thought that he’ll blackmail me by disclosing our relationship in a negative way ( but he had never thought of doing this. Its my bloddy mind who is building such thoughts). That day various stupid things happened because of my stress , anxiety and this OCD ( i am not sure its ocd or what) . Whenever i go to shopping i check 100 times whether i have my wallet with me or not. I am so stressed, so depressed. Everyone is suggesting me to visit doctor. But no, I don’t want to because my mates and brother will bully me by saying “MAD” or “LOST MIND” . Please suggest me some over the counter medications and some home remedies as well. I tried to medidate but whenever i close my eyes these horrible thoughts of “ dieing footage of family members” etc starts appearing. I will surely visit a doctor and will tell my family about the same too. But before that please help me. Thanks