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In 2000 at the age of 40 I had a total hysterectomy by an abdominal incision. The moment I woke up my life was changed...and not for the best. I awoke from the surgery with such sever back pain and to this date suffer with chronic pain. I do have a degenerative disc problem but my pain was only if I did something to aggrevate it. Within a year I was hurting every where, I felt like my muscles were on fire. I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia. I eventually quite my job as I couldn't function. I have tried every kind of hormone product that has been introduced to me, spending thousands of dollars unsuccessfully. I have gained 40+ pounds which has been so depressing because I'm limited to the physical acitivity I can do without paying big time if I do try something. I have sleep deprivation as I can't lay in one position for any length of time due to the back pain and overall pain from the fibromyalgia and/or I wake up with night sweats, thankfully someone produced a small battery operated fan that I keep by my side that I can turn on immediately and stop my oven from overheating as I'm waking every 1 1/2 to 2 hours. I can't focus, I been trying to overcome depression. I'm only 52 years of age and have been married to my loving husband for 31 years but I have no libedo. He's been very supportive but frustrated as our lives have changed. Fortunately, I have a beautiful loving and compassionate family that supports me and is here for me when I most need them. I'm constantly beating myself up by thinking you have a good life there are others who are really suffering, you are alive, on and on and on my mind spins. I just want to feel better and enjoy my 3 beautiful grandbabys.