I have recently moved from Los Angeles to a small city near San Francisco, as my fiancee got into Stanford Law school and we wanted to be together while is is studying. I am working remotely for a studio in L.A. so am at home all day every day, often without a car.
Although I know how lucky I am to be able to "have my cake and eat it too" by keeping my man and my job, I find that I am lonely. I am used to city life and the area I am in now is very suburban. People barely come out onto the pavements! Also, I have left all my friends in Los Angeles and my family is all back in Ireland. I was actually doing a search to ease my loneliness when I saw that my old friend from Ireland, Susan C. is an expert on this site!
Lately I feel a little like I am on an island. My fiancee has to study all the time, when he is not at school, so I am very isolated except for the company of my dogs. I try to get out....I hike almost every day and walk into the nearby town, but it is very hard to meet people. I am not religious so joining a church is not an option. I find myself living for the weekends when Aaron and I have a little time together. I know that I need to get out of this way of feeling, as I am an artist and should use this time wisely to do my own work, but I am mourning my friends and my former more structured life in the city.
How can I escape this mode of thinking? It's almost like I have suffered a death, as I feel that my old life has gone and I know no one except for my fiancee.