Hi,
I am a 20 year old girl, studying in college right now. I live with my parents. Travel an hour to college everyday. I recently underwent treatment for depression. I have a very loving and caring boyfriend. Not many friends as of now like how i used to before.
I have college 6 days a week. And to make things even worst, i have to attend college till 4 in the evening even on Saturdays. So that leaves me with only Sundays for relaxing. Oh, did I say Relaxing? On the only day i get off i have to finish off with assignments, studying for tests and projects everything included. And i end up doing nothing constructive and by the time its 5 i start feeling low.
Today evening its been really bad. I have been trying to control my tears. Talking very rudely to everyone around. Tore a whole newspaper and threw it on the floor in anger. I am feeling so pessimistic right now. A whole week lies ahead of me. I feel worthless.
My boyfriend lives far so he can't come to see me. He's been constantly trying to cheer me up by texting. My friends are all out or busy with something. I can't even go out anywhere. I don't mind going for a drink all alone but i don't have the money to spare considering my tight budget these days. And i can't drink at home. I have seen enough TV since morning. I am left with no option but to cry cause i don't feel like studying either.
Sorry for being so negative in my writing. Can't help that's how i feel right now.
Why does this happen to me on every Sunday evening i fail to understand i really need some help.