Today I told the father of my child that I wasn't pregnant....
I took some tests and they were negative. I still didn't feel right and I went to the clinic (without him) to check. They told me I was around 4 weeks pregnant and had low hormone levels that probably weren't detected by the test.
When I told him, he told me that he wanted me to take tests infront of him since I didn't go with him to the clinic. He was just being a dick about the whole thing, and while I understood it, it was uncalled for. It pissed me off that he didn't trust me. How are you supposed to have a baby with someone you don't trust? Also, I heard a lot of things he said about me and when we hooked up. He basically ruined my reputation.
So when I got home I told him that I got my period and had been taking hcg supplement that probably affected my test results. He seemed really happy and relieved and told me that he would clear up the rumors. But how can he do that when he was already "telling people"?
I want to confront him about this **** , and tell him the truth, but I have a feeling he'd be very angry and also wouldn't believe me. My hearts really not in it with this baby and the dads a big player. Before he found out I was possibly pregnant he hadn't even talked to me for a few weeks after we hooked up a few times. Even if I do get an abortion, I wish he could be there. But I dont think that's a possibility now. I do want to go get my lucky rosary before if I do , but I dont want to go to his house and seem like I'm trying to be in his buisness 24/7.
Please do not lecture me about abortion please. I've got enough on my plate. I truly feel alone and like I have ****** up. I even googled if it was possible to turn back time. I feel very emotional and desperate now and I dont want to do anything irrational. I dont know what to do about the situation, did I do the wrong thing? Thanks for the help!