I, too, have rather recently been able to say that I am truly healthy and happy. I struggled with anorexia and bulimia for over five years and was hospitalized a year and a half ago - voluntarily. That was the best decision I ever made. Life with an eating disorder is awful. It is a life full of shame, secrets, self-hatred, and wasted energy. I would leave friends, family, everyone in an instant if I felt the need to binge and purge. NOT binging is not an option - you will do ANYTHING possible to get your hands on food, whatever kind of food is available. It is just as bad as a heroin addiction..so much that I ended up stealing money and food just to fulfill my addiction. I failed all of my classes because I was too busy eating and puking to bother doing my work. I put myself in the hospital when I hit 82 pounds.
I have so much more free time now. I eat when I'm hungry and I don't when I'm not. I haven't weighed myself in months. Most of the clothes I wore when I was ill don't fit me anymore and I have thrown them all away so they don't trigger me into wanting to starve again. I'm healthier and happier than I ever have been. I hope one day I can share my story with a young girl suffering from an eating disorder and inspire them to get healthy while they're young so they can lead healthy, productive lives.
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I, too, have rather recently been able to say that I am truly healthy and happy. I struggled with anorexia and bulimia for over five years and was hospitalized a year and a half ago - voluntarily. That was the best decision I ever made. Life with an eating disorder is awful. It is a life full of shame, secrets, self-hatred, and wasted energy. I would leave friends, family, everyone in an instant if I felt the need to binge and purge. NOT binging is not an option - you will do ANYTHING possible to get your hands on food, whatever kind of food is available. It is just as bad as a heroin addiction..so much that I ended up stealing money and food just to fulfill my addiction. I failed all of my classes because I was too busy eating and puking to bother doing my work. I put myself in the hospital when I hit 82 pounds.
I have so much more free time now. I eat when I'm hungry and I don't when I'm not. I haven't weighed myself in months. Most of the clothes I wore when I was ill don't fit me anymore and I have thrown them all away so they don't trigger me into wanting to starve again. I'm healthier and happier than I ever have been. I hope one day I can share my story with a young girl suffering from an eating disorder and inspire them to get healthy while they're young so they can lead healthy, productive lives.
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