I'm sorry this is so long! My boyfriend and I haven't had sex in four months. I'm 32, he is 29, and we have been together for 4.5 years. My situation is a bit different from everyone else. I have two daughters (not his) and I work at home. My boyfriend has worked nights managing a strip club for the past 2 years. He fell into this job when he was desperate for cash, and there is no escaping it now. Our sexual relationship has really gone downhill over the past year. He has three nights a week off and is always "too tired and stressed" to have sex. I do know that he watches porn and masturbates when he's not with me. I feel completely sexually deprived. I am so depressed. I am a slim, beautiful women, and I get compliments from other men all the time. I care deeply about the way I look, always wanting my hair to be perfect, wear nice clothes and makeup etc. My boyfriend swears he isn't cheating on me, but I'm incredibly insecure about his job; especially when he hasn't touched me in months. He drinks when he is working (they all do), and I know for a fact that he finds one of the strippers (most are ugly and annoying) very attractive. They have become "good friends" over the past two years. The thing is, I know he loves me. He is kind, gentle and considerate. He loves my daughters, and he takes care of us. I feel like I'm going insane! I don't get out much. I'm always home, waiting, wondering. I feel so incredibly insecure. I've started thinking (a lot)about sex with others, and on the occasion I go out without him, I am ALL about other guys. I feel sooo desperate for sexual attention. I don't really want to cheat on my boyfriend. I love him. And I know that cheating is a dealbreaker for him. He would leave without thinking twice. But I can't handle feeling this way anymore. I've talked, cried and begged for sex! I've initiated and been rejected. I dress sexy. It infuriates me! I'm attractive damn it! Why doesn't he want me? I'm hurting so much. Is this crazy? Are we women insane for being so preoccupied with sex or lack thereof? I don't know. :(
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I'm sorry this is so long! My boyfriend and I haven't had sex in four months. I'm 32, he is 29, and we have been together for 4.5 years. My situation is a bit different from everyone else. I have two daughters (not his) and I work at home. My boyfriend has worked nights managing a strip club for the past 2 years. He fell into this job when he was desperate for cash, and there is no escaping it now. Our sexual relationship has really gone downhill over the past year. He has three nights a week off and is always "too tired and stressed" to have sex. I do know that he watches porn and masturbates when he's not with me. I feel completely sexually deprived. I am so depressed. I am a slim, beautiful women, and I get compliments from other men all the time. I care deeply about the way I look, always wanting my hair to be perfect, wear nice clothes and makeup etc. My boyfriend swears he isn't cheating on me, but I'm incredibly insecure about his job; especially when he hasn't touched me in months. He drinks when he is working (they all do), and I know for a fact that he finds one of the strippers (most are ugly and annoying) very attractive. They have become "good friends" over the past two years. The thing is, I know he loves me. He is kind, gentle and considerate. He loves my daughters, and he takes care of us. I feel like I'm going insane! I don't get out much. I'm always home, waiting, wondering. I feel so incredibly insecure. I've started thinking (a lot)about sex with others, and on the occasion I go out without him, I am ALL about other guys. I feel sooo desperate for sexual attention. I don't really want to cheat on my boyfriend. I love him. And I know that cheating is a dealbreaker for him. He would leave without thinking twice. But I can't handle feeling this way anymore. I've talked, cried and begged for sex! I've initiated and been rejected. I dress sexy. It infuriates me! I'm attractive damn it! Why doesn't he want me? I'm hurting so much. Is this crazy? Are we women insane for being so preoccupied with sex or lack thereof? I don't know. :(
May 5, 2011 - 11:40amThis Comment
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