My name is Jenny, and when I was 13 I had the worst cramps ever. I couldn't move, sit, stand, or anything, I would just cry, and my daddy would still make me do my chores. My step mom got mad and said that I should probably be starting my period but it seemed something was wrong. SO she took me to the doctor. I had a dr that it felt like all he wanted to do was feel inside me cause it was different, he made me so uncomfortable. I then went for an ultrasound and me and momma saw the doctors face drop. She ran out of the room and got the dr. When they came back in momma insisted to know what was wrong and they told us they didn't see a uterus. I went in for the laprascopic surgery next. When I woke up my step momma was beside me crying and I knew.... I cried for my daddy. He wouldn't come in at all. He was in the hall crying too. Momma held my hand at the next appointment when they all told me that I don't have a uterus or birth canal.
I ran out of the dr.'s office and hid for hours. Then momma found me picked me up and took me home. I'm 25 now and since I was six I've always wanted to HAVE 12 kids. Now I can't even see myself having one anymore. They never put me in counseling for it or anything, they just wanted me to forget. The dialator thing was brought up but my dad wouldn't let me and after I turned 18 mom and the dr's still wouldn't let me get the surgery. SO I too went and fixed it the all natural way with the guy I had been with for a few years. The bad part was I was already lost to a major drug problem. I am recently clean for the first time since then and the reality of all of this is really sinking in and I keep having really bad break downs. I have 4 sisters younger then me and they are starting to get married and have their own kids and I cant bring myself to meet their kids till their a year old almost. None of my family ever asks me how I am or anything I have become the blacksheep or is it that I just don't want to deal with their crap? I'm so lost.... It is so hard to stay clean and straight.... I don't know what to do... It has been 12 years and I keep spiraling downward.... someone plz give me some advice PLEASE... this is really killing me!!
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My name is Jenny, and when I was 13 I had the worst cramps ever. I couldn't move, sit, stand, or anything, I would just cry, and my daddy would still make me do my chores. My step mom got mad and said that I should probably be starting my period but it seemed something was wrong. SO she took me to the doctor. I had a dr that it felt like all he wanted to do was feel inside me cause it was different, he made me so uncomfortable. I then went for an ultrasound and me and momma saw the doctors face drop. She ran out of the room and got the dr. When they came back in momma insisted to know what was wrong and they told us they didn't see a uterus. I went in for the laprascopic surgery next. When I woke up my step momma was beside me crying and I knew.... I cried for my daddy. He wouldn't come in at all. He was in the hall crying too. Momma held my hand at the next appointment when they all told me that I don't have a uterus or birth canal.
January 30, 2011 - 6:47pmI ran out of the dr.'s office and hid for hours. Then momma found me picked me up and took me home. I'm 25 now and since I was six I've always wanted to HAVE 12 kids. Now I can't even see myself having one anymore. They never put me in counseling for it or anything, they just wanted me to forget. The dialator thing was brought up but my dad wouldn't let me and after I turned 18 mom and the dr's still wouldn't let me get the surgery. SO I too went and fixed it the all natural way with the guy I had been with for a few years. The bad part was I was already lost to a major drug problem. I am recently clean for the first time since then and the reality of all of this is really sinking in and I keep having really bad break downs. I have 4 sisters younger then me and they are starting to get married and have their own kids and I cant bring myself to meet their kids till their a year old almost. None of my family ever asks me how I am or anything I have become the blacksheep or is it that I just don't want to deal with their crap? I'm so lost.... It is so hard to stay clean and straight.... I don't know what to do... It has been 12 years and I keep spiraling downward.... someone plz give me some advice PLEASE... this is really killing me!!
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