I feel your pain. This "defensive" behavior is the classic m.o. with this. Anything to keep what becomes an "at all costs" system of deception. The ultimate cost is our sincere hope that it will ever change. Trust me, after years of this, my "husband's" mask( I no longer view him as being any part of me, he lost that privilege long ago) started to wear thin and all of the years of his twisted logic of making ME(you heard it right) the reason for his behavior, whether coming from a chat room or a cheap hotel room, it's all the same, betrayal is betrayal. I have chosen to leave and never look back. I have decided that I am worth more to myself and my daughter(who is now grown, but trust me, it all sends a message)to allow this blatant disrespect, deception and pseudo-union to ever continue again. It has all been a facade. We all deserve true and meaningful relationships. Ones that are based in sincerity and genuineness. I never found this with him. I later realized I never would. He is a narcissistic, empty shell of a man with deep cruelty inside who psychologically abused me beyond recognition for years. I will never change my mind. I only wish I would have did this much sooner. I will never look back but only to help others struggling with this. Please realize how worthy you are of true love and authenticity.
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I feel your pain. This "defensive" behavior is the classic m.o. with this. Anything to keep what becomes an "at all costs" system of deception. The ultimate cost is our sincere hope that it will ever change. Trust me, after years of this, my "husband's" mask( I no longer view him as being any part of me, he lost that privilege long ago) started to wear thin and all of the years of his twisted logic of making ME(you heard it right) the reason for his behavior, whether coming from a chat room or a cheap hotel room, it's all the same, betrayal is betrayal. I have chosen to leave and never look back. I have decided that I am worth more to myself and my daughter(who is now grown, but trust me, it all sends a message)to allow this blatant disrespect, deception and pseudo-union to ever continue again. It has all been a facade. We all deserve true and meaningful relationships. Ones that are based in sincerity and genuineness. I never found this with him. I later realized I never would. He is a narcissistic, empty shell of a man with deep cruelty inside who psychologically abused me beyond recognition for years. I will never change my mind. I only wish I would have did this much sooner. I will never look back but only to help others struggling with this. Please realize how worthy you are of true love and authenticity.
March 26, 2019 - 10:38amThis Comment
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