Thank you both for your wonderful feedback. It comforts me so much to know that there are many out there who understand what I'm going through. After my revelation of what happened in my past and finally owning it and not denying that I still felt pain, I felt a huge amount of relief but also a weird sense of guilt for coming out and letting things off of my chest. I felt as though I was betraying my Mom, which I know rationally, that's furthest from what I'm doing by talking about everything. I think because my Mom and my relationship has come very far in a good way, even though she's still manipulative in ways, I felt a sense that I shouldn't "complain" about my childhood because others had it a lot worse. I realized though and will continue to realize through therapy that I can't compare my situation to others and what they experienced. I have to focus on what happened to me and work on healing. Thanks again.