Well so it is has been a few weeks. Things haven't changed much. He is still saying that he is leaving although he hasn't done anything to really show that he is planning on leaving. I have told him that once he is gone he cannot come back so he better be sure that whatever it is that he feels is out there for him is worth leaving his family for. I also asked him if he just wanted to leave for a month and see what it was like. I don't want to give him a "free pass" if you know what I mean, but right now I don't even know if that hasn't already happended. I am just thinking that he keeps saying he can't think with me being in teh house and all that so maybe being away will help. I don't know anymore.
I have been doing my own thing and just giving him his space. I leae the house with my kids and go do things. This past weekend I left early on Sat to go out of town shopping by myself and came home that evening. He didn't even bother me all day. Don't know if that is a sign that he doesn't really care anymore or if he was just giving me my space as well.
To make matters even better I ran into the woman he had pictures of on the phone out shopping on Friday. I confronted her and it was very awkward. At first she acted like she didn't know who I was which was bull because she new me from Middle School and she had also seen me at the gym. Anyway I asked her what she was thinking and how she could do that knowing that he was married and she kept saying he is unhappy and all this mess. I was like do you live in my house, do you know what my life is like. You hear one side of the story, and apparently he is making a good one to these women and maybe to his friends and family as well. They all really feel sorry for him. Which were her words. I guess I felt sorry for him. Then she kept saying that he would say things and she would question him and then notice that he wasn't leaving and that he wasn't showing any initiative to make a change and that is when she started thinking that he just had issues and that he needed to deal with them. She told me that she never meant to hurt me and I was like done enough damage and it wasnt her that hurt me it was him. She apologized over and over again and said that she had blocked his numbers and that she was out of the picture and I didn't have to worry about her. She said she didn't need to be in all this drama. I just said whatever and walked off. So that was a wonderful day.
I am so at a loss these days. Somedays I look at him and think just go away I can't deal with this anymore. And then other days I look at him and cry because I can't imagine him not being my husband and it makes me so sad.
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Well so it is has been a few weeks. Things haven't changed much. He is still saying that he is leaving although he hasn't done anything to really show that he is planning on leaving. I have told him that once he is gone he cannot come back so he better be sure that whatever it is that he feels is out there for him is worth leaving his family for. I also asked him if he just wanted to leave for a month and see what it was like. I don't want to give him a "free pass" if you know what I mean, but right now I don't even know if that hasn't already happended. I am just thinking that he keeps saying he can't think with me being in teh house and all that so maybe being away will help. I don't know anymore.
I have been doing my own thing and just giving him his space. I leae the house with my kids and go do things. This past weekend I left early on Sat to go out of town shopping by myself and came home that evening. He didn't even bother me all day. Don't know if that is a sign that he doesn't really care anymore or if he was just giving me my space as well.
To make matters even better I ran into the woman he had pictures of on the phone out shopping on Friday. I confronted her and it was very awkward. At first she acted like she didn't know who I was which was bull because she new me from Middle School and she had also seen me at the gym. Anyway I asked her what she was thinking and how she could do that knowing that he was married and she kept saying he is unhappy and all this mess. I was like do you live in my house, do you know what my life is like. You hear one side of the story, and apparently he is making a good one to these women and maybe to his friends and family as well. They all really feel sorry for him. Which were her words. I guess I felt sorry for him. Then she kept saying that he would say things and she would question him and then notice that he wasn't leaving and that he wasn't showing any initiative to make a change and that is when she started thinking that he just had issues and that he needed to deal with them. She told me that she never meant to hurt me and I was like done enough damage and it wasnt her that hurt me it was him. She apologized over and over again and said that she had blocked his numbers and that she was out of the picture and I didn't have to worry about her. She said she didn't need to be in all this drama. I just said whatever and walked off. So that was a wonderful day.
I am so at a loss these days. Somedays I look at him and think just go away I can't deal with this anymore. And then other days I look at him and cry because I can't imagine him not being my husband and it makes me so sad.
April 12, 2010 - 6:53amThis Comment
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