Cary,
Everything you said made sense. I know I need to fix myself first before fixing my failed marriage. I know i'm depressed because since 5 years i wanted to have a baby but we can't get pregnant. We already checked and doctors said everything's fine although I have ovarian cyst but the doctor said that it will not affect
Within this past agonizing weeks, I looked in the mirror and everything i see i just hate. I distant myself from everyone and I hate when friends started calling me asking if i'm okay..
Lately, i started praying and i started to feel like i belong in this world and i have learned that there are more importnat things that my husband should be worried about. He is battling an emotional war within himself too for his mom's depressed(commited suicide when my husband's in his highshool days) - his father's an alcoholic and his brother dont want to go to school anymore and just want to party (he's 18 years old).
I abused his love for me for i know he loves me so much. He graduated as cum laude while i ddint make it to the dean's list even.
he is succesful at work while i'm not happy (we worked in the same compnay)
I started to be so insecure when people in our neighborhood started talking why this man married this girl.. i know im not that smart but im so confident before, (im even the vice-president external affairs in my university) but since i married my hsuband, i felt like im just in his shadow and i have to admit that i am so insecure since then.
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Cary,
April 19, 2010 - 12:16amEverything you said made sense. I know I need to fix myself first before fixing my failed marriage. I know i'm depressed because since 5 years i wanted to have a baby but we can't get pregnant. We already checked and doctors said everything's fine although I have ovarian cyst but the doctor said that it will not affect
Within this past agonizing weeks, I looked in the mirror and everything i see i just hate. I distant myself from everyone and I hate when friends started calling me asking if i'm okay..
Lately, i started praying and i started to feel like i belong in this world and i have learned that there are more importnat things that my husband should be worried about. He is battling an emotional war within himself too for his mom's depressed(commited suicide when my husband's in his highshool days) - his father's an alcoholic and his brother dont want to go to school anymore and just want to party (he's 18 years old).
I abused his love for me for i know he loves me so much. He graduated as cum laude while i ddint make it to the dean's list even.
he is succesful at work while i'm not happy (we worked in the same compnay)
I started to be so insecure when people in our neighborhood started talking why this man married this girl.. i know im not that smart but im so confident before, (im even the vice-president external affairs in my university) but since i married my hsuband, i felt like im just in his shadow and i have to admit that i am so insecure since then.
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