I can not imagine what pain you go through with the murder of your sister. Unimaginable.
But I would like to speak to you and discuss experiences as bi-polar. I have many issues going on right now.. several chronic pain syndromes, anxiety, fibro, terrible insomnia, the list goes on and on and I am not wanting to whine about it but come up with solutions.
If you are interested in talking, I can give you my yahoo messenger ID.
I don't have a very good support system, Feel the same-- like I'm on an emotional rollercoaster--I know I've got to get a therapist too, and perhaps medication changed or adjusted but the days get away from me.
Well, take care,