Hi Susan,
yes i know that getting married and having kids at this time would only make the situation more complicated, i'm smarter than that. I'm not really sure i'll be finishing college.. maybe in a few years i might go back to school for something different.
Whenever i bring up the issue he'll say things like "it's time to move on, its been a while now, we should be able to get over this". However when the situation gets worse and i cry or get really upset, he'll say "i'm sorry i hurt you so bad, it's my fault, you're right you should feel this way for what i did to you"...
I try really, really hard not to think about it, but for an example even last night i had a nightmare that we were in a bar and sitting at different tables, and i could see him with someone else.. the situation is haunting me, literally. It's taking all of my willpower to stay postive, but i can't really control my dreams, the thoughts just tend to sneak up on me sometimes..
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Hi Susan,
yes i know that getting married and having kids at this time would only make the situation more complicated, i'm smarter than that. I'm not really sure i'll be finishing college.. maybe in a few years i might go back to school for something different.
Whenever i bring up the issue he'll say things like "it's time to move on, its been a while now, we should be able to get over this". However when the situation gets worse and i cry or get really upset, he'll say "i'm sorry i hurt you so bad, it's my fault, you're right you should feel this way for what i did to you"...
I try really, really hard not to think about it, but for an example even last night i had a nightmare that we were in a bar and sitting at different tables, and i could see him with someone else.. the situation is haunting me, literally. It's taking all of my willpower to stay postive, but i can't really control my dreams, the thoughts just tend to sneak up on me sometimes..
May 23, 2010 - 10:08amThis Comment
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