I'm sorry for what you're going through ladies,but your not alone. ...
I am 28 and I was forced or pushed to get married by my family and he knew that I was forced to marry him... once he told me he wanted me because I said no and no one says no to him , in my culture their is engagement first which is legally called marriage but the actual wedding is when you wear the wedding gown and make the wedding ceremonies ...So in my culture I'm just engaged. ..at the beginning I hated him it was so difficult I wanted to die ..I had depression and gained wait , I tried everything to get out of this situation but after a couple of months ,when I noticed how good he treats me and that he respects me and he says that he loves me so much I tried to accept what's happening to me and try to look at things from another perspective. .But on the other hand I feel that he doesn't desire me or look at me like he wants me even when I wear sexy tight clothes..or wear makup or do my hair ...and months can pass by with just kisses on my cheek even if i tried to kiss him he will gently turn away and kiss me in my cheek..
I started to worry but I said nothing then suddenly he insisted having sex even though it's not approved in our culture to have sex before the ceremonies ..so we agreed to have sex without penetration. ..what I noticed he didn't want to look at my body ,he turned of the lights he avoided touching my boobs ...he tried to be good but it was obvious that he was not enjoying it ..I'm suspected that he might be gay because I found out that some of his friends are gay ...
He always lies I can't trust him and I found out that he's not responsible. .we have troubles but I want to escalate them to divorce it's difficult but I feel maybe it's better. ..
I'm afraid from hurting him after all what he have done to me ...
Should I go forward and get divorce?
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I'm sorry for what you're going through ladies,but your not alone. ...
October 18, 2016 - 3:43pmI am 28 and I was forced or pushed to get married by my family and he knew that I was forced to marry him... once he told me he wanted me because I said no and no one says no to him , in my culture their is engagement first which is legally called marriage but the actual wedding is when you wear the wedding gown and make the wedding ceremonies ...So in my culture I'm just engaged. ..at the beginning I hated him it was so difficult I wanted to die ..I had depression and gained wait , I tried everything to get out of this situation but after a couple of months ,when I noticed how good he treats me and that he respects me and he says that he loves me so much I tried to accept what's happening to me and try to look at things from another perspective. .But on the other hand I feel that he doesn't desire me or look at me like he wants me even when I wear sexy tight clothes..or wear makup or do my hair ...and months can pass by with just kisses on my cheek even if i tried to kiss him he will gently turn away and kiss me in my cheek..
I started to worry but I said nothing then suddenly he insisted having sex even though it's not approved in our culture to have sex before the ceremonies ..so we agreed to have sex without penetration. ..what I noticed he didn't want to look at my body ,he turned of the lights he avoided touching my boobs ...he tried to be good but it was obvious that he was not enjoying it ..I'm suspected that he might be gay because I found out that some of his friends are gay ...
He always lies I can't trust him and I found out that he's not responsible. .we have troubles but I want to escalate them to divorce it's difficult but I feel maybe it's better. ..
I'm afraid from hurting him after all what he have done to me ...
Should I go forward and get divorce?
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