Hi, thank you so so much for responding.
I am 30 years old, and although I still feel broken, with the help of few selected friends I was able to put aside those ugly thoughts that my life was over, as my life is far too valuable.
I have plenty of friends, but the complexity of this situation makes it the more difficult to talk to someone about it.
I was diagnosed with herpes about 3 months after being active with him. He confessed it to me the same day we had sexual relations. Which shocked me, and would have loved for him to tel me before but he was sorry and vowed to help me through it. As time went along, we became best friends, but part of our family was aware of the situation and obviously opposed to it.
His mom even gave him an ultimatum, but I was so important to him, that he still stayed with me.
I sat down to gather my thoughts the other night and wrote down what do I fear and see in this and came out with many questions:
1. Do I really love him to put of through this or walk away and deal.
2. Am I afraid of being alone. (I would never put anyone through herpes, and came to terms with being alone my whole life) keep in mind we vowed to be partners for life.
3. Are all my insecurities preventing me to see a much clearer picture and keeping me in denial.
But all those things got clouded but the fact that I just found out I am pregnant. I have not told him, nor am I planning, But it is ceirtain as sad and as against it that I am, I will have an abortion. I can even imagine what this baby would bring to the family.
It happened after changing birth control pills, and this couldnt have arrived at a more difficult time.
I need guidance.
Thanks again for responding
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Hi, thank you so so much for responding.
I am 30 years old, and although I still feel broken, with the help of few selected friends I was able to put aside those ugly thoughts that my life was over, as my life is far too valuable.
I have plenty of friends, but the complexity of this situation makes it the more difficult to talk to someone about it.
I was diagnosed with herpes about 3 months after being active with him. He confessed it to me the same day we had sexual relations. Which shocked me, and would have loved for him to tel me before but he was sorry and vowed to help me through it. As time went along, we became best friends, but part of our family was aware of the situation and obviously opposed to it.
His mom even gave him an ultimatum, but I was so important to him, that he still stayed with me.
I sat down to gather my thoughts the other night and wrote down what do I fear and see in this and came out with many questions:
1. Do I really love him to put of through this or walk away and deal.
2. Am I afraid of being alone. (I would never put anyone through herpes, and came to terms with being alone my whole life) keep in mind we vowed to be partners for life.
3. Are all my insecurities preventing me to see a much clearer picture and keeping me in denial.
But all those things got clouded but the fact that I just found out I am pregnant. I have not told him, nor am I planning, But it is ceirtain as sad and as against it that I am, I will have an abortion. I can even imagine what this baby would bring to the family.
June 3, 2010 - 7:39amIt happened after changing birth control pills, and this couldnt have arrived at a more difficult time.
I need guidance.
Thanks again for responding
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