I'm so sorry to hear that your boyfriend has not been truthful with you, and by his omissions may have affected your health. Of course you are traumatized! Now you MUST take steps to learn how to deal with herpes and protect your health, and make some difficult decisions regarding your relationship with your boyfriend. It may be hard right now, but you need to make your health and well-being your priority. He obviously hasn't, and that speaks to his character and values. You have a lot to think about, and I hope you will remember that your needs have to come first. Good luck!