Thank you for your post and for finding EmpowHER. Regardless if it is depression or menopause, there are things you can do to make your situation better. It sounds like you do want to be better. Start with your doctor. Do you have one you trust? They can refer you to a therapist, or counselor to work with and figure out what could be going on. There is medication you can take to help improve your outlook until you can learn to cope on your own. If it is menopause, there are several different ways to treat symptoms.
Do you have family? What did you used to like to do? What do you do in bed? Do you read, watch TV, or sleep?
Please come back and give us more information, and let us know if you need help locating resources.
You also may want to join the Depression Group at EmpowHER: Depression Group
Good luck and let us know how you're doing.