Thanks for coming back and talking with us.
When you say difficult, what do you mean by that? Are you in this country against your choice? If you could go back to your home country, would you? Please know, you do have choices. Please let us know how we can help. Do you need resources for changing your situation? Please share whatever information you are comfortable sharing.
Do you have a doctor? Would you go see them and explain your situation and how you are feeling. I'm positive they also would be a great resource for helping you get through this.
We also are a great network of women who want to see you happy, healthy and moving forward in your life. We are here to inspire and support you. You may feel stuck now, but you can get through this.
Here is some information that may be of interest:
Mood Disorders Page