I have gone threw 3 miscarrriages. the first one was planned, Tomorrow would have been babies first birthday. I cry all over February, leading up to the 26th. I was 8 weeks at first ultra sound, where my son and I seen the heartbeat on the ultra sound screen. he was almost 7. man was he ever happy. i started spotting at 12 weeks, the day after I posted my belly photo on social media and told the world because I had made it 12 weeks. That day I began spotting, i went to emerge, to see on the screen, this time there was no heartbeat. baby had stopped growing at 8 weeks and at 12 weeks it had no heartbeat. I've gone through 2 miscarriages since, so I constantly blame myself. I blame my body for letting me down constantly. I've been referred to a fertility clinic to find out why I can't seem to keep a pregnancy. Heres to hoping.