Thank you for this post, it really made me think about my situation. I can't begin to speak about my life in what I think might be an emotional relationship. I was married to my husband for 14 years when we divorced because of his emotional and physical abuse. I always thought it was my fault because after so much accusing I became unfaithful. after 2 years of being divorced we remarried because i felt he had changed and it would be the right thing for my children.,I have been so wrong. The physical abuse is not there but emotionally I feel like I'm dying inside. He constantly accuses me of cheating or lying. I can say that I have not been unfaithful. I go to work and take care of my family. He calls me all day at work and if I do something any different than what I say he accuses me of lying. I walk on eggshells daily because I'm not sure of what to say or what not to say. Unfortunately I always say something that triggers him. Just today I made a comment about how long a flight would be and he immediately asked me how i would know about flight times unless I had been to the same place he was going. I have not, I told him. He then tells me I'm lying and starts bringing things up from the past. I am at my breaking point but, I don't know how to get out. I feel stupid because I asked God to bring us back together again and now I'm trying to leave. I love my husband but, not the way I should. I don't have any physical/emotional attraction for him. At this point I don't think I ever will.
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Thank you for this post, it really made me think about my situation. I can't begin to speak about my life in what I think might be an emotional relationship. I was married to my husband for 14 years when we divorced because of his emotional and physical abuse. I always thought it was my fault because after so much accusing I became unfaithful. after 2 years of being divorced we remarried because i felt he had changed and it would be the right thing for my children.,I have been so wrong. The physical abuse is not there but emotionally I feel like I'm dying inside. He constantly accuses me of cheating or lying. I can say that I have not been unfaithful. I go to work and take care of my family. He calls me all day at work and if I do something any different than what I say he accuses me of lying. I walk on eggshells daily because I'm not sure of what to say or what not to say. Unfortunately I always say something that triggers him. Just today I made a comment about how long a flight would be and he immediately asked me how i would know about flight times unless I had been to the same place he was going. I have not, I told him. He then tells me I'm lying and starts bringing things up from the past. I am at my breaking point but, I don't know how to get out. I feel stupid because I asked God to bring us back together again and now I'm trying to leave. I love my husband but, not the way I should. I don't have any physical/emotional attraction for him. At this point I don't think I ever will.
June 5, 2012 - 1:15pmThis Comment
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