hi,
i'm an ex ED, was both anorexic then bulimic.. for a year vomited 3 times a day, restricted many things out of the diet too.. then stopped because i went on contraception and my fear of getting pregnant (i was 17 at the time) was stronger then anything.. but it did not CURE me. in fact when i took a break some years later i started again for a little while.. and then just decided i'd try to love myself more.
i never visited any doctor, i never took any medication and.. it took years. i am sure now that if i have looked for help it would have gone faster - still i wouldn't take any medication.
what got me off it was an every day mental training and work on getting rid of my emotional dependencies, and i think it's not so different at all from going through a drug detox.. forcing to love myself more until i eventually started to believe in it. it also meant getting far from some people in my life which made me feel more insecure for a while.
it's long and slow and painful, but if you really want it, you can do it without prozac, of that i'm sure. for me it was a bunch of small baby steps, but each one i made made me feel more proud of myself and eventually took me out of that.
i was also lucky to be real passionate about sports, i teach yoga now, and this both obliged me to quit and made me reconnect with my own body in a totally different way.
the only thing i still lack now is a precise sense of hunger, i don't really know what "i'm hungry" actually means, but... a regular life style, wake up, breakfast, work, lunch, work, light dinner... kinda following the clock does the trick for me :)
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hi,
May 28, 2011 - 8:49pmi'm an ex ED, was both anorexic then bulimic.. for a year vomited 3 times a day, restricted many things out of the diet too.. then stopped because i went on contraception and my fear of getting pregnant (i was 17 at the time) was stronger then anything.. but it did not CURE me. in fact when i took a break some years later i started again for a little while.. and then just decided i'd try to love myself more.
i never visited any doctor, i never took any medication and.. it took years. i am sure now that if i have looked for help it would have gone faster - still i wouldn't take any medication.
what got me off it was an every day mental training and work on getting rid of my emotional dependencies, and i think it's not so different at all from going through a drug detox.. forcing to love myself more until i eventually started to believe in it. it also meant getting far from some people in my life which made me feel more insecure for a while.
it's long and slow and painful, but if you really want it, you can do it without prozac, of that i'm sure. for me it was a bunch of small baby steps, but each one i made made me feel more proud of myself and eventually took me out of that.
i was also lucky to be real passionate about sports, i teach yoga now, and this both obliged me to quit and made me reconnect with my own body in a totally different way.
the only thing i still lack now is a precise sense of hunger, i don't really know what "i'm hungry" actually means, but... a regular life style, wake up, breakfast, work, lunch, work, light dinner... kinda following the clock does the trick for me :)
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