Hi Chippi, I just want to encourage you to try going back to therapy or pursuing other help. You're saying that "a fatal disease would be a blessing" and "I don't want to live another 20-30 years feeling this way." That is perfectly understandable to feel that way, but it's also a sign that it's time to do something. Depression is often cyclical, and just because you've recovered in the past doesn't mean you're immune in the future. Sounds like right now you are experiencing a kind of relapse, but it DOESN'T have to be permanent. You can get past this again - you beat it before!
You have a purpose beyond this, and depression is robbing you right now. A lot of counselors offer pro bono or sliding scale services that can be very affordable. You are worth it!
Depression is an abusive disorder - it tells you that you can't handle looking for help and paralyzes you to believe or hope, even when help is very achievable. And it is.
I will be thinking about you, Chippi, let me know if there is something I can do to help. And Rheyanne, thanks for the great and informative article. I will definitely be sharing!
Comment Reply
Hi Chippi, I just want to encourage you to try going back to therapy or pursuing other help. You're saying that "a fatal disease would be a blessing" and "I don't want to live another 20-30 years feeling this way." That is perfectly understandable to feel that way, but it's also a sign that it's time to do something. Depression is often cyclical, and just because you've recovered in the past doesn't mean you're immune in the future. Sounds like right now you are experiencing a kind of relapse, but it DOESN'T have to be permanent. You can get past this again - you beat it before!
August 21, 2011 - 5:42pmYou have a purpose beyond this, and depression is robbing you right now. A lot of counselors offer pro bono or sliding scale services that can be very affordable. You are worth it!
Depression is an abusive disorder - it tells you that you can't handle looking for help and paralyzes you to believe or hope, even when help is very achievable. And it is.
I will be thinking about you, Chippi, let me know if there is something I can do to help. And Rheyanne, thanks for the great and informative article. I will definitely be sharing!
This Comment
Reply