thanks for your reply. I do not have a problem going to the hospital. What my problem is I do not need to go to a mental facility, which is where my doctor wants to send me. I HAD anorexia. I do not have it now, and i have explained that to my doctor. I eat meals through out the day and i love food. The feeding tube was a kind of a last resort. My doctor looks at me and says, "You have anorexia nervosa"..because of my weight. Mentally, I do not have it. I would love to be a healthy weight, I really would. For some reason, my body just will not gain weight anymore. If anything, it keeps losing. And I explain this to everyone and they brush it off as "Anorexia" talking. That is not the case. I eat everyday. The only person who believes me is my therapist, who see's my frustration with the medical field. Last time I saw my doctor, she asked to see my arms to see if I had been "cutting". I was extremely offended. I do not engage in self-injury, so I was extremely insulted. I was not even there for that. I was there because I had a fever.
The point is, I am getting desperate to gain weight, and I have done everything in my power--and i felt the feeding tube was the last resort. I do not need to go to an eating disorder facility or mental facility, because I do not have anorexia. I HAD it a couple years ago.
The only thing my doctor says to me whenever i go to see her is ," You need to be hospitalized."
I do not need to be hospitalized for something I do not have. I just need to gain weight, and with everything I've tried, nothing works. I am getting tired of the stares, and comments from people. I just want to gain weight.
I am reaching out for help from my doctors, but I will not be treated for something I do not have. I can't gain weight and I know it is hurting my body badly, but I am not purposely losing weight.
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Hi Rosa,
thanks for your reply. I do not have a problem going to the hospital. What my problem is I do not need to go to a mental facility, which is where my doctor wants to send me. I HAD anorexia. I do not have it now, and i have explained that to my doctor. I eat meals through out the day and i love food. The feeding tube was a kind of a last resort. My doctor looks at me and says, "You have anorexia nervosa"..because of my weight. Mentally, I do not have it. I would love to be a healthy weight, I really would. For some reason, my body just will not gain weight anymore. If anything, it keeps losing. And I explain this to everyone and they brush it off as "Anorexia" talking. That is not the case. I eat everyday. The only person who believes me is my therapist, who see's my frustration with the medical field. Last time I saw my doctor, she asked to see my arms to see if I had been "cutting". I was extremely offended. I do not engage in self-injury, so I was extremely insulted. I was not even there for that. I was there because I had a fever.
October 7, 2011 - 10:41amThe point is, I am getting desperate to gain weight, and I have done everything in my power--and i felt the feeding tube was the last resort. I do not need to go to an eating disorder facility or mental facility, because I do not have anorexia. I HAD it a couple years ago.
The only thing my doctor says to me whenever i go to see her is ," You need to be hospitalized."
I do not need to be hospitalized for something I do not have. I just need to gain weight, and with everything I've tried, nothing works. I am getting tired of the stares, and comments from people. I just want to gain weight.
I am reaching out for help from my doctors, but I will not be treated for something I do not have. I can't gain weight and I know it is hurting my body badly, but I am not purposely losing weight.
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