Ok, I know I'm only 5 months late on this, but thank you so much for this. This is exactly how I'm feeling. My bf and I have been on and off for 10 years. We used to have the best sex life and he always told me how pretty I was and how lucky he was.. And flash forward to now. We've been living together for 3 years. I can't even remember the last time we had sex. The last time he"attempted" it was actually just me using my hand on him. And when he was done, he had the nerve to say to me, "That was fun. Good night" and ROLL OVER AND FALL RIGHT TO SLEEP. Oh and he's fallen asleep multiple times during foreplay and sex. And just the other day, as we were messing around, he was continuing to watch tv and even making comments about the show as he was touching me! I have told him SO many times how much that hurts. I've cried in front of him. I've begged. Jr always says "you're right. We need to fix that" blah blah blah. Nothing ever changes. And, not to be cocky, but I know how attractive I am. I get hit on all the time. And he's the ONE guy I actually want and the one who actually has me! And yet he acts like who cares?! He says I'm still"the hottest girl he's ever seen" but what good are his words when his actions say the complete opposite? His actions are saying I'm not attractive in the least. And that just makes me want to prove him wrong sooooo bad. I have been going to bars after work alone purposely to get hit on. It has been so long since I've been flirted with and made to feel attractive. Back when he used to give me all of that attention, I never cared one bit about the outside male attention I got. But, now I crave it to maintain what's left of my self esteem. And the oddest thing of all is he gets so mad when I do that.. He gets incredibly jealous. But its like, okay, you don't want me, but you also don't want anyone else wanting me either? Geez. I also lay in bed and fantasize about other men being sexually attracted to me. What the hell is going on?? I have NEVER done that. And it makes me feel like my life has gotten pretty sad. Yes, this is the worst feeling ever. He hears me crying at night, but says I'm overreacting. So, nothing will ever change because he doesn't think there's a problem to begin with... I've been looking at apartments. So, at least I took a step towards getting out of this. Thank you for sharing and letting me know I'm not alone!
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Ok, I know I'm only 5 months late on this, but thank you so much for this. This is exactly how I'm feeling. My bf and I have been on and off for 10 years. We used to have the best sex life and he always told me how pretty I was and how lucky he was.. And flash forward to now. We've been living together for 3 years. I can't even remember the last time we had sex. The last time he"attempted" it was actually just me using my hand on him. And when he was done, he had the nerve to say to me, "That was fun. Good night" and ROLL OVER AND FALL RIGHT TO SLEEP. Oh and he's fallen asleep multiple times during foreplay and sex. And just the other day, as we were messing around, he was continuing to watch tv and even making comments about the show as he was touching me! I have told him SO many times how much that hurts. I've cried in front of him. I've begged. Jr always says "you're right. We need to fix that" blah blah blah. Nothing ever changes. And, not to be cocky, but I know how attractive I am. I get hit on all the time. And he's the ONE guy I actually want and the one who actually has me! And yet he acts like who cares?! He says I'm still"the hottest girl he's ever seen" but what good are his words when his actions say the complete opposite? His actions are saying I'm not attractive in the least. And that just makes me want to prove him wrong sooooo bad. I have been going to bars after work alone purposely to get hit on. It has been so long since I've been flirted with and made to feel attractive. Back when he used to give me all of that attention, I never cared one bit about the outside male attention I got. But, now I crave it to maintain what's left of my self esteem. And the oddest thing of all is he gets so mad when I do that.. He gets incredibly jealous. But its like, okay, you don't want me, but you also don't want anyone else wanting me either? Geez. I also lay in bed and fantasize about other men being sexually attracted to me. What the hell is going on?? I have NEVER done that. And it makes me feel like my life has gotten pretty sad. Yes, this is the worst feeling ever. He hears me crying at night, but says I'm overreacting. So, nothing will ever change because he doesn't think there's a problem to begin with... I've been looking at apartments. So, at least I took a step towards getting out of this. Thank you for sharing and letting me know I'm not alone!
December 13, 2015 - 12:42amThis Comment
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