Thank you soo much for those kind words. I have prayed for healing and I feel every time that God is leading me towards finding councelling to help me deal with this stuff. Ironically the person I would usually go to for advice is my father :( , i do have a question though, do I tell my husband about this stuff I don't think I can devulge some of the things to him as I don't want him to look at me or my father in a different light. Oh my goodness i need to find a therapist. I'm going to look for one today. I do thank you and I really just want to find inner peace so i can move on .