I was 21 years old, i was having problems with my upper torso, searing white hot pain that would bring me to my knees, so the doctor sent me for an ultrasound. As i lay there talking away they decide to check my liver to see what this issue is, after that take some pictures they bring the tech in and he pokes around, the next words out of his mouth changed my entire life,
I have been on birth control since i was 12, i never read the package never thought anything of it, i stopped taking it when i was 17 I hated the weight gain and how sick it made me , i might as well have been pregnant. So as i lay there with the tech pushing past my rib cage with the ultra sound he asks if im on birth control, i tell him no i had tried a few times and i couldn't stand it. he said i have to stop immediately , because i have a 2 inch tumor on my liver, he said it doesn't look cancerous but i will have to go for a MRI, have a good day, I leave devastated crying smoking calling my mother losing my mind my world is coming to a end i may be dying with no clue as to what the heck is going on, I make the appt with my doctor and we do the MRI, holy terrifying for me it was my very first one and hopefully my last. A week later i am back with the doctor getting my results , as it turns out the tumor was put there by birth control and made it grow, i could no longer take it and i can not have kids for the extra estrogen makes it grow and it could burst and cause internal bleeding and i could die., so here were my options option 1 i can have the IUD, how that ever made sense was beyond me extra estrogen is extra no matter how its put into your body, and i heard enough nightmares about it to say no, option 2 you have to have your tubes cauterized , not much in the way of options for me , the worst part was that i was getting married that year , it was a lot to take in and a lot to processes . it took a lot of talking and deciding . I was 21 almost a newly wed my life just beginning and here i am trying to decide how to get my tubes tied or do i just get my uterus removed , it nearly destroyed me , it was the hardest decision i will ever have to make in my life, one that no woman at 21 should have to make ever my tubes got cauterized at 21 years old . but here i was doing it because a doctor once told me it was safe to take the pill , because that doctor did not tell me what could happen from taking the pill. because everyone is on the pill for one thing or another, because no woman was able to spread the word like i can today . because no one made me aware of the risks . that i would be taking a gamble with my life and the possibility of never having kids. one teeny tiny drug taken every day for 5 years , managed to destroy my entire life, Women need to be aware of this they need to know what they are up against what can happen and what has happend , because I am not just some weird 5 percent statistic I am real I am more then 5 percent I did not come from a lab I am one in many who have had this happen I will be one in the many to come. I admit i got really lucky I had two girls before this happend I get the looks of being a young mom every day but it still remains had i not had them young i never would of had them at all. most women who have this wont get that chance . And yes I wanted more and they took that from me.
This is my story and i hope it empowers women to be more informed of what they put into their bodies , and i hope it makes doctors tell us what we need and should know. spread the word Its our right as women. this has become too common its not ok. jocelyn murray 25 and still alive.
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I was 21 years old, i was having problems with my upper torso, searing white hot pain that would bring me to my knees, so the doctor sent me for an ultrasound. As i lay there talking away they decide to check my liver to see what this issue is, after that take some pictures they bring the tech in and he pokes around, the next words out of his mouth changed my entire life,
May 19, 2016 - 9:40amI have been on birth control since i was 12, i never read the package never thought anything of it, i stopped taking it when i was 17 I hated the weight gain and how sick it made me , i might as well have been pregnant. So as i lay there with the tech pushing past my rib cage with the ultra sound he asks if im on birth control, i tell him no i had tried a few times and i couldn't stand it. he said i have to stop immediately , because i have a 2 inch tumor on my liver, he said it doesn't look cancerous but i will have to go for a MRI, have a good day, I leave devastated crying smoking calling my mother losing my mind my world is coming to a end i may be dying with no clue as to what the heck is going on, I make the appt with my doctor and we do the MRI, holy terrifying for me it was my very first one and hopefully my last. A week later i am back with the doctor getting my results , as it turns out the tumor was put there by birth control and made it grow, i could no longer take it and i can not have kids for the extra estrogen makes it grow and it could burst and cause internal bleeding and i could die., so here were my options option 1 i can have the IUD, how that ever made sense was beyond me extra estrogen is extra no matter how its put into your body, and i heard enough nightmares about it to say no, option 2 you have to have your tubes cauterized , not much in the way of options for me , the worst part was that i was getting married that year , it was a lot to take in and a lot to processes . it took a lot of talking and deciding . I was 21 almost a newly wed my life just beginning and here i am trying to decide how to get my tubes tied or do i just get my uterus removed , it nearly destroyed me , it was the hardest decision i will ever have to make in my life, one that no woman at 21 should have to make ever my tubes got cauterized at 21 years old . but here i was doing it because a doctor once told me it was safe to take the pill , because that doctor did not tell me what could happen from taking the pill. because everyone is on the pill for one thing or another, because no woman was able to spread the word like i can today . because no one made me aware of the risks . that i would be taking a gamble with my life and the possibility of never having kids. one teeny tiny drug taken every day for 5 years , managed to destroy my entire life, Women need to be aware of this they need to know what they are up against what can happen and what has happend , because I am not just some weird 5 percent statistic I am real I am more then 5 percent I did not come from a lab I am one in many who have had this happen I will be one in the many to come. I admit i got really lucky I had two girls before this happend I get the looks of being a young mom every day but it still remains had i not had them young i never would of had them at all. most women who have this wont get that chance . And yes I wanted more and they took that from me.
This is my story and i hope it empowers women to be more informed of what they put into their bodies , and i hope it makes doctors tell us what we need and should know. spread the word Its our right as women. this has become too common its not ok. jocelyn murray 25 and still alive.
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