I was diagnosed at 13 after a violent fight at school. I was in juvie and then sent to a hospital from there I went to and RTC.. I have been on almost everything with the exception of the recent drugs. I used be a cutter and I had issues with eating and drugs.. I got pregnant when I was 17 and then again at 18.. I am now 21 and not on any meds except for anxiety and sleeping meds. I choose not to take them because of how sedating they are. I also can't deal with the weight gain. My moods switch often and I'm paraniod a lot. I have issues with "losing control of the situation" I often feel edgy and anxious... its hard to deal with anything in life like making and showing up to appts.. iv become obsessed with my weight but I haven't had any violent outburst since I was about 18 but I still have anger problems. I'm in a relationship and its hard on him I know, because I'm very controlling and paranoid, but I am very scared of medication.. I just hope that I can find my way and that I'm not alone. :):(
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sickgirl13,
the only advice i can give you is that you are not alone. i know this is three months later but hope you get it. go to truehope.com and view. it is up to you to decide what you think about it. hang in there; hope things get better.
March 6, 2011 - 8:13pmThis Comment
I completely understand your frustrations. I'm 39 & just got on meds about 2 yrs ago. For me, when I gave up cigarettes, alcohol & illegal drugs, food became my drug of choice. So, I have SERIOUS weight issues... my psych can SEE my issues & works hard to be sure I am on meds that don't have weight gain as a side effect if it can be avoided at all. My suggestion would be for you to go to a psych, discuss your frustrations & limitations & let them find something that will work for you. If they don't seem to want to work with you... find another one! It took me 3 psychs to find one that understood that I wanted help, but couldn't keep going further up in clothing sizes to work on the other issues.
March 5, 2011 - 1:15pmThis Comment
sickgirl13 - Thanks for writing in and for candidly describing your situation. It sounds like you are looking for help and wanting to find ways to bring some stability to your life and to your relationship. At the same time it sounds like you are afraid of being medicated.
Do you have anyone you can talk to about this? It might help to find a support group where you can discuss your treatment options, living without medications, diet and nutrition to support your health, and more. It sounds like you feel all alone right now and hesitant to seek professional help, so being in a group of other people who have your same condition might be helpful in sorting out the next steps you would like to take to get your life and relationship in order.
Have you heard of the Depression and Bipolar Disorder Support Alliance? They have many useful online tools. http://www.dbsalliance.org/
They also have links to online support groups: http://www.dbsalliance.org/site/PageServer?pagename=support_OSGnocomponent
Daily Strength also has bipolar support groups: http://www.dailystrength.org/c/Bipolar-Disorder/support-group
With support groups you sometimes have to try several before finding one that is right for you. Don't give up! It takes time and effort to take care of one's own health, but it sounds like you want to do that, and I hope this information will help you in getting there.
November 7, 2010 - 6:38pmTake care,
Pat
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