SUNSHINE AFTER THE RAIN
Hello Everyone,
I am a survivor of narcissistic abuse. As a child I grew up with a narcissistic mother who often, neglected, abandoned, abused and belittled me daily. I was never treated as a "loved" or "important" member of our family and adapted to this abuse in order to survive. I do not have many happy memories just flashbacks of the many nights i cried to sleep begging to be loved or dead so i didnt have to feel this pain. Ironically i excelled in school and being mistreated at home did not affect my drive to succeed. I was very intelligent, popular and liked but i did not have many close friends and always resorted to isolating behaviors. I never gave much thought towards my needs, wants, feelings, and ideas I was just consumed with pleasing my mother who could never be fulfilled and this failure left me broken and desperate. Narcissists thrive off your pain and though its taken years of therapy and a confession to the abuses I FORGIVE MY MOTHER. I believe she did the best she could in her situation and simply taught me what she learned as a child. I am the middle child and my brother and sister are also Narcs who I love very much. I have recently moved out on my own and though I have a lot more healing to go I feel it is necessary to reward and appreciate myself regularly. Victims of Narcissistic parents lose all sense of identity and self worth and have to heal from within or will forever be unable to truly love another human being because they have to learn to love themselves first. At 22 i can look in the mirror after a life of isolation and pain and smile at the beautiful, loving, strong, woman and mother i have become. Anyone who has been subjected to a Narcissists abuse is a SURVIVOR period WE ARE SPECIAL PEOPLE :)
THANK U VERY MUCH...I JUST HAVE BEEN THROUGH ALOT & SINCE IT HAS NOT DESTRUCTED ME COMPLETELY I WANT TO HELP OTHERS IF I CAN BY LETTING THEM KNOW U CAN ALWAYS MAKE IT THROUGH ANYTHING IF U DECIDE TO NO LONGER BE ABUSED & REALIZE HOW MUCH VALUE YOU TRULY HAVE :) THIS SAVED MY LIFE!
October 10, 2012 - 2:36amThis Comment