When I was young I saw my father without clothes on more than one occasion. my bedroom was between theirs and the bathroom and he would sleep without clothes on but if he had to go to the bathroom he wouldn't put clothes on. So I saw him naked on a few occasions. That's all that ever happened, he was a wonderful dad, he just had a little bit of a nudist in him i think.
But now I really don't like the sight of a man's penis. I am just now realizing this is probably related. That when I saw my dad's, i realized it was something i wasn't supposed to see. plus at that age, you know, things like that just look weird. Scary even. I was probably between 10 and 15.
here's my question: how can i change this? my reaction, i mean. To this day it just feels like there is something ugly about it or something I"m not supposed to look at. I don't see it as appealing or exciting. (Sex is fine, it's just the actual physical appearance that bothers me.)
thanks in advance for any thoughts.