I really don't know how to describe this really, cause i don't know how i feel. I feel as if i'm not really here. If i was stood in a crowd, i feel i don't belong and as if i'm invisable. I feel sad/down all the time and don't know what to do to be happy. I've lost interest in friends and don't want to go out or do anything. I just feel tired all the time, like i could sleep for days. I've been like this for over a year now and i don't know what to do tho feel better. I have never thought about killing myself and i don't now, but one time months ago, i don't remember why i was upset and wanted to disapear and cutting my wrists just came in my head and as it did my wrists felt as if the were burning as if i could feel the blood pumping through like they wanted me to do it. Was that a suicidal thought? I want to get out of this but i don't know what to do. I don't want to go to a doctor cause i feel daft and don't know what to say. Is there anything i could take or do to feel happy?